>>917407433I used to have a really really aggressive bbc fetish that turned into a cuck fetish that phased out after I got older and started falling more in love with the women I dated.
But for a long long time I didn't watch porn that wasn't bbc/cuck/gangbang/bnwo and I could even look at solo bbc jerking videos.
cumming to bbc porn is still the best orgasms ive had while jerking off.
wanting to be a cuck ruled my psyche for awhile, every relationship I got in for years I was counting down the days until I felt comfortable approaching them to cuck me.
I didn't want to be sissified, I didn't want them to be rude to me. I just wanted them to love being fucked by bbc.
I wanted to watch, encourage, kiss them while they did it, hold them, record it. make out with a load on their face, clean every creampie with my tongue,
I was willing to make agreements with myself on what I was willing to give up to make the lifestyle happen for me.
At first I said "well, I'll only have sex with her if its sloppy seconds."
then I said. "well, im willing to go pussy free, as long as I still get anal
then, "I will go pussy/anal/oral free if she keeps fucking black guys"
then "ill put myself in a cage if it means she's bbc only and has enough bulls."
I drew the line at letting her be impregnated but at my worst I was convincing myself that "maybe it'll be the best version of this fantasy if I let her get impregnated."
one ex and I had sex every day, and I started to hate it because I wanted her to get fucked by a bbc. I talked to her about it and she wasn't interested. But when she'd go down on me I could picture a black dick in her mouth instead of mine and it made me upset that it wasn't happening.
Then I got older and the fantasy never happened.
I started falling in love for real with some women I dated.
Started having even better sex than before.
Now I don't want to be a cuck at all.
