>>917404895i used to get blackout drunk on liquor and pass out by about 1am, but then I'd wake up a few hours later wanting more alcohol
the liquor stores didn't open until noon, but gas stations could start selling fourloko and similar booze at 5 a.m., so i'd be waiting until 5 struck to go in and buy a few of those to get drunk and black out again before heading to work for a couple of hours so people didn't think i'd just disappeared
i'd wait until everyone had left work to make it look like i was working late, then i'd leave and go straight to the liquor store to start drinking all over again
a lot of nights i didn't eat dinner, or tried and couldn't eat much or just threw it up
i miss being drunk, but i don't miss what living like that was doing to my physical and mental health
