>>806107538Well I'm still in college since I failed it the first time around. Have one year left but I might have to take a semester off bc I failed an exam. I moved to another city far from home to attend college so basically all my friends and family are still back home. Have been becoming way more socially anxious as of late as well so I don't even bother trying to get some friends and socialize where I attend college so I spend 95% of my free time at home, at my computer.
I also have an insane amount of existential anxiety, mostly related to death. It makes everything seem pointless and that really fucks any motivation I would have had of exercising and eating well.
The worst part is that I used to be so happy. I was fit in high school and brave enough to go out with girls, had no real social anxiety back then at all. As soon as I'm done with college I will move back to where I came from and I really hope I can be happy again, having all my friends close as I used to. But somewhere inside me I feel like it will just keep being like this no matter where I live. I just need to take control over my own life and grow up, but it's so hard.
