how do people like you exist?
"this 12 year old girl that I'll never actually see in real life is 'muh waifu'" No she is not your wife. She never will be and she has no clue of your existence. She will likely live a longer prosperous life than you and will notice at all when you die sad and alone. Get rid of your fedora, shave your neckbeard, go workout and build some confidence and maybe if you're lucky you can pull a 6/10 from a nightclub after you slip her a roofie. Bet you don't engage women in conversations in person very often.