>Be me
>Be fat, but tall
>First year of University
>Bit of an outcast
>This one 7/10 always says "hi" to me
>Figure she's just being nice
>We start doing group assignments and we start talking between classes or when we're in the bus
>She gets more and more comfortable talking to me about stuff like her dead father and sex with her bf
>Figure she must be thinking I'm a fag
>Get "accepted" into the group because I hang out with the girl
>I know she has a bf, but it's nice to be "liked"
>She asks me if I want to go out with them
>This is getting a little too normal for me so I tell her I can't get back home if stay out late
>She says I can stay over
>Figure she must be thinking I'm really fucking gay
>Agree and go out
>She drinks too much
>Get her home
>She gets frisky
>She starts talking dirty
>Oh fuck, she wants to fuck
>Think to myself *This should either be the moment where I say goodbye and leave like a gentleman or go for it*
>I go for it and feel a mix of excitement and disgust
>Go to her bedroom
>She takes of her pants and lays down
>I start fucking her but I'm doing a horrible job
>It probably looks like I'm plowing a bag of flower
>She starts talking dirty again
>"Oh yeah, fuck me, daddy."
>I start thinking about what she just said and just as I'm starting to lose excitement and gain more disgust she says:
>"Oh yeah, fuck me daddy. Put that big cock in my eight year old pussy."
>This is probably the only time in my life I felt disgusted as I came instead of afterwards
>She's out
>Panic and run
>As I'm about to leave I notice a big picture of her as a little girl and her dad
>I look just like him, I could be his twin brother.
>What the actual fuck?
>Get a call next day from her saying she doesn't remember what happened last night.
>Have to play nice for the rest of the year.
I still see her sometimes and whenever I do I always feel the same mix of excitement and disgust.
