>>648396034i feel you anon, used to be in the same position for a long time :\ but hey, using references all the time isn't that bad, it's just being able to draw consistently every day is what's hard
something I do to try and remedy it is just draw something every day from life (not a photo) or from imagination, no matter how doodley or finished, it just has to be something I drew
eventually drawing will become something like a habit, and you'll become more relaxed and, hopefully, will enjoy it more