guys i am so fucking fucked. gave up heroin after a few months of chipping then a few too many days consecutive use, few too many wd's so i stopped it like a week ago cold turkey.
thing is, same day i saw my dealer, and i bought 2 grams of meth, 3.5 of some fucking insane cocaine so powerful even meth can't compete with it - been smoking both for days and the coke always wins, it''s always that high i feel if i've used both, even though i od'd slightly on 90mg of this glass. both of these batches are motherfucking insanely strong.
anyway. point is... i think i'm legit going to kill myself. i have 1 ounce of weed thank god, but zero money for any other drugs of any kind, and the comedown i'm about to experience will have been composed by
2-16 pints/day all year
10 months chipping heroin/fentanyl (both IV) - few fuck ups using too many consecutive days, now conscious of a deep post-smack depression.
100mg/day quetiapine (just for sleep)
2 days of 400mg/day mdma
2 days of freebased fishscale
3 days of 250-400mg glass meth
precisely zero seconds of sleep since starting the meth. it's IMPOSSIBLE to sleep after using this stuff, even like 26 hours later i couldn't sleep, so just went back on it. so tired this shit is taking me like an hour to type, can barely see let alone type.
and the only reason i started all this is because my gf left me... four days ago i found out they're now engaged.
ll of those drugs i've done in the last like 8 days, and im binging like fuck on mdma, which has a more fucking depressing comedown than heroin. now i get to experience both simultaneously.
anyone been through anything this severe? i've been through wd from all of the above in moderate form individuallly, fairly heavy form for opiates after 5 years of codeine some time back, but these comedowns all at once? i'm fucked, aren't i?
>goes back to his tinfoil, everything is ok with the foil in my hand