Gonna greentext here, just have to get this stuff off my chest.
>dealt with some shit in my childhood, nothing too serious
>father going to prostitutes and even tho being a really good earner, managed to produce debt, because he felt "left alone" after the birth of my older brother
>only father figure I had was my grandfather, but died early, still trying to live up to his ideals
>was part of social life in school, but always the less liked/less popular one
>had some troubles getting girls, but managed somehow to score
>23 years old now, 6 relationships, 3 with actual sex involved, 2 serious ones(10 months&1 year), second one still lasting
>husky-fat guy(which is still fat, but not as ugly), probably 6/10, tho others try to convince me otherwise
>Gf solid 7/10
>currently finishing my apprenticeship(no idea what it's called in English, kraut here) as a prozess engineer for plastics and rubber
>promising career when I finish it- 6 month left
>circle of friends, 2 very close
>going to the gym 3-5 days á 1,5h a week on top of working 5 days 6:30-15:30/16:00
>just feel.. tired. All the time. that feeling you have in your head when you are physically exhausted, just perpetuated endlessly. Don't know how to describe it otherwise..
Anyway, my life isn't so fucked up, I am having it pretty good actually and still I somehow can't enjoy it in the least.
Thanks for bearing with me, anyone who took the time to read through those first world problems.
p.s.: Happy birthday, op. Sorry for hijacking your thread to vent. Cute dog pic as apology.