my reason is that im pathetic. im 21, ive lived through a fine upbringing and cant blame anyone but myself.
i have nothing to look forward to or live for. all i do all day is wait to get back to my computer to mindlessly get through time. ill never get a girlfriend, and its too late now. if i was a girl i wouldnt want to be with me, so its pretty unfair to try to trick one of them into being with me isnt it?
same with getting a job. im sure there are better applicants, and i wouldnt hire me over someone else, so why trick a company into hiring me?
ive got no value or worth to anyone. i have barely any friends, and a bleak outlook of the future, so i want to end it now