>>648326415>>648326573thanks anons
right now 44
unemployed and unemployable drunk.
wander the house I inherited drinking and thinking and talking to myself.
Until I fall asleep drunk then wake up to do it again.
Mom died 7 years ago dad 9 years ago.
Still miss them and still have dreams they are here.
Both died knowing me a loser, so couple extra layers of guilt.
Inherited their estate 900k and 500k house . Was told not to give any to my sister who married an asshole. Still gave her 300k then she left me for dead.
Have a BS bio from 1999 now worth nothing and BS nursing from 2010. Still haven't taken the state test nor even studied for it. So it's probably not worth shit anymore.
House is falling apart so is my health.
Hypertension, tooth decay, eyes are shot, stage 3 hemorrhoids sticking out of my ass every time I take a dump. Guess where those came from.
God damn nigger cocks.
Feeling better now as starting drinking at 7 am .
Two so called friends left. all the others through out life just used me and then left.
One only calls when somethings bothering him and dgaf if anything bothers me. But I act as his personal counselor.
The other doesn't seem too interested.
Last gf 14 years ago. All of them have either left for w/e reason they could come up with or shit on me until I had to leave them.
Saved a cat from the street a while back . spent 500 on vet bill to get him fixed up and then he dropped dead a year later. Congenital defect I guess.
No bawwwws, never feel bad for myself. It's almost like I can hear a laugh at all that's gone wrong and all that I fucked up.
Kind of hear a voice right after the laugh that says "good!".
Along with other thoughts that when put into a voice say things more clearly and worse.