Alright, you played by the rules so I'll bite anon. Sounds like shit happened and you're having trouble adjusting to being alone. It sucks, trust me the majority of men have been dealing with this shit since they were teens. Basically, you deal, you live, and you become numb.
It may sound shitty but it's the truth. You just go numb and suddenly life is bearable enough not to kill yourself. You find acquaintances, maybe, but mostly you just exist doing what you want when you want.
Welcome to the shit the rest of us have been living. It doesn't get better, it just gets more bearable.