my life has gone so far downhill in the last few weeks i dont even know why i haven't done it yet
>be me, 19
>I just found out last month my dad has terminal cancer, he's basically confined to a hospital bed because his lungs are filling up with fluid.
>they have to keep him on a catheter/pump otherwise his lungs will collapse and he'll drown.
>obviously he can't work, so me being the oldest, the family financial responsibilities fall on me.
>only working part time making minimum wage
>little brother is going to a prestigous university full-time, have to make enough money to pay his tuition
>had to drop out of school, and grab a second job
>working 40-50 hours a week to keep my family afloat, I have no money left at the end of the month to do anything.
>get a speeding ticket that really fucked me
>in my area, fines and penalties are double for young drivers at my age
>cops impound my car till next week
>they're taking away my driver's license
>$400 to get my car out of impound,
>$1800 in insurance premium increases
>can't afford to get car out of impound
>dont know what the fuck to do because i need it to get to my jobs
>can't get financial loans because too young and no credit history
im going to be stuck in a never-ending loop of no money. I'm probably going to lose my dad before I hit 20, I'm probably going to lose one of my fucking jobs. I have no family that can help me, my friends are all in school full-time while and don't have time to talk/hang out with me and to top it all off, I have no social skills and I suck at everything because I had such a fucking sheltered childhood.
i'm a failure and i dont have anything to live for, but i don't wanna abandon my little brother. Fuck he doesn't even know about our dad yet, i dont have the guts to tell him because its gonna crush him