Go get a fucking hobby. Go to barnes and noble, sit in the coffee area and read a book. Don't rely on other people to make you happy or love you, love yourself first. Nobody is going to want to put up with your depressing bullshit when you can't even put up with it yourself. /b/ is the most depressing place to be when you're in that mindset, go take a walk or some shit, stare at a tree and admire the beauty and shit.